Thursday, March 17, 2005
12:41 AM


GOD, I could never thank you enough.

Yes. I have the greatest God indeed. This is so not because He ruled the world with all soulless authority; not because He lived a prosperous lif--one with the greatest treasure or the biggest wealth; not even because He has seized everyone with His mighty and powerful hands. HE IS THE GREATEST GOD simply because He has the most unconditional, undying love. A love so great anyone bestowed with it would feel nothing but unimaginable unworthiness.

My God, You always meet me where I am. And You love me right there. But often I ask why. The enigma of this authenticity haunts me. I have done You the deepest error and have hurt You more than my memory banks could ever possibly contain. Almost every minute I sin, and almost every single thought is so much tarnished. Yet You always love me. You have eyes of inconceivable mercy with which You always witness my worth. The worth of my person--my genuine value--which I myself most often fail to acknowledge. You reward me with blessings I know perfectly I am not worthy of. You provide me with more than what I truly deserve.

I will resort to reiteration, for my heart wants the whole world to hear what it is dying to say: MY GOD, I COULD NEVER THANK YOU ENOUGH! Behind all the achievements were you, my only master. Lord, You were the only one who kept me going. There have been so many times when the world has made me forget the meaning of life; of love; of happiness. Problems have so cruelly crushed me to the ground. Criticisms have unkindly lacerated my susceptible soul. But YOU, and oftentimes, only YOU stuck by my side. You have forever remained the eyes that see me at my ugliest, the hands that hold me at my weakest, and the heart that loves me at my worst. Yes Lord, you have made me realize that that YOU were and will always be the ONLY reason that would unceasingly keep me waking up every morning of my life.

I have indeed achieved many, but only because of YOU Lord. And I thank you more for all the painful failures. Father, in every trial You have made me go through, in every pain You have made me experience, in every breakdown you have allowed me to encounter, You have caused me nothing else but great success. Through all these, you have spoken directly to my heart, confidently guaranteeing me that I am forever loved! In every endeavor I have boldly taken, even in those I have cowardly considered, You were the one who has always made my heart strong. You sustain the wind beneath my wings, so that with the right you have generously given me, I can freely fly with You, the sole Owner of the sky.

Now Lord, I'm about to end the yet most wonderful and memorable phase of this journey You yourself called 'life.' A chapter so great that no single word could ever be fitting enough to serve as an adjective to describe its real profundity. As I venture into another world filled with darkness and innumerable qualms, I once again entrust everything to You Lord. I may not know what the future holds for me, but having been given the opportunity to know even only Your Holy Name is enough to keep me satisfied. For If You Father is for me, who then, could ever be against me?

Lord, I love you so much. Though my thoughts, words, and actions speak otherwise, there is nothing that could ever change what I feel for you. You have given me so much reason to love you. Truly more than enough that never in my life could I ever possibly find any reason at all to hate you and to choose to live in vain by my own.

YES Lord, loving you is the meaning of my life.