Sunday, April 17, 2005
10:32 AM
for the first time after several years, i have found someone waaay better than spongebob.
BO BICE.
yeah. the hot guy has captured my heart and has left spongebob crying for attention.
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nuttiness.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
5:43 PM
sheesh. i almost forgot i have a blog.
see ive been reeeaaaallllyyy lazy these days.
ahhh summer....
anyways, the only reason im writing this is because i am stuck at my lola's house with exactly nothing to do. i cant even indulge in an all day etc/hbo/starworld marathon (which, mind you, is the ONLY thing that keeps me alive these days) because my young nieces/nephews are so ready to terminate whoever gets in their way making them fail in their pursuit of dominating the entire television set. argh. really pathetic.
still, im feeling happy because my eldest brother passed the board exam with flying colors. :D yay!!!
so world, gear yourself up for the coming of ENGINEER RAYMUND NABLE.
....okay. so im overreacting. again.
but like i care. im really proud of what he'd accomplished.:D
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i am so loving american idol.
but im loving bo bice more.
one single smile makes me melt.totally.
but im not discounting the fact that constantine's also very gorgeous.
its just that, err, i like bo bice more. :D
no, wait a minute. i dont like bo... i love him. he rocks it out all the time!
paula's so right. we'll see him at the f.i.n.a.l.e.
argh. can't give a decent review of american idol at this point.
i'll just make another entry completely about the show and about bo next time.
yeah. next time. maybe after another 40 years when ive already overcome laziness. :D
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bye world.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
1:22 PM
senior citizens
meron isang couple.
pareho silang matanda na.
siguro mga hundred years old na.
pero c lola, papansin parin kay lolo.
kaya one day, sabi niya, ise-seduce nya c lolo.
first night: nagsuot sya ng pink na nightgown na see-through
lolo, deadma
second night: nagsuot sya ng t-back (saklap)
lolo, deadma parin
third night:
lola: hindi na ko papayag, dapat mapansin nya na ko ngayon.
kaya ginawa nya, naghubad sya.
lolo: o, bat ganyan suot mo? gusot-gusot!
hahaha.
Friday, April 08, 2005
7:48 AM
ace judicio
i'm out to get you.
yak.ampanget palang pakingan.
but still, i'll find you.
i swear we'll meet again.
we just have to.
5:19 AM
you name it!
(nyee! baduy)
1). YOUR PORN STAR NAME - (NAME OF FIRSTPET + STREET YOU LIVE ON):.
:: ashley flaviana
2). YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME -(GRANDMOTHER'S/ GRANDFATHER"S FIRST NAME + FAVORITESNACK FOOD):.
:: Florentina jamaican patties
3). YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME - (FIRSTWORD YOU SEE ON YOUR LEFT + FAVORITERESTAURANT)::
:. sony mcdonald (okay. so it's a fast food. but like i care)
5). YOUR SOCIALITE NAME - (SILLIESTCHILDHOOD NICKNAME + FIRST TOWNWHERE YOU PARTIED)::
:. Bange Eastwood (that is so not it. ampanget)
6). YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME - (FIRSTINITIAL + FIRST THREE LETTERS OF YOURLAST NAME)::
:. R. Nab
7). YOUR DETECTIVE NAME - (FAVORITEANIMAL + NAME OF HIGH SCHOOL)::
:. elephant St Paul
8). YOUR BARFLY NAME - (LAST SNACK FOODYOU ATE + YOUR FAVORITE ALCOHOLICDRINK)::
:. pretz vodka ice
9). YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME - (MIDDLENAME + STREET WHERE YOU FIRST LIVED)::
:. amago capt. ato (huwatsdatt?)
10). YOUR ROCK STAR NAME - (FAVORITECANDY + FAVORITE MUSICIAN'S LAST NAME)::
:. mentos morissette
11). YOUR "POPULAR" NAME - (FAVORITECELEBRITY'S FIRST NAME + BEST FRIEND'SCITY NAME)::
:. ashton pasig (anu ba!)
12). YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME - (NAME OF[OPPOSITE SEX] FRIEND + CELL PHONECOMPANY YOU USE)::
:. Sherwin smart (okay. he's gay, but he really is smart. :D)
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
12:14 PM
bored
i.am.just.plain.bored.
which reminds me, board shorts are on sale at landmark.
uhh,, i think. 0.o
pajamas are so out nowadays. completely superfluous.
coffee jelly from jollibee tastes pretty good.
but nothing beats mcdo caramel sundae.
oh how i miss school.
i can't sing to save my life!
So why am I in a choir?
just get me an iPod.
i am tired of my hair. i badly need a haircut.
i hate roaches. and smoke. and not getting text messages from anyone for an entire day.
my brother's the greatest pet ever.
bring me to bora. or to alaminos--hundred islands
i wanna make this o.j a little private. damn it!
i hate talkativeness. people, just shut the f*ck up!
i love waking up to at least 3 txt msgs every morning.
and well, I woke up this morning to 10 msgs. Khuuhl.
aaaaccccckkkkk! im stepping on spongebob!
everything bores me.
including the net.
i am not vain like others. but I do find them really droll. what? that's a compliment!
i loooovvveee fruits. Im gonna be a fruitarian anytime soon. (i wish)
my eyes are too sore bcoz of much: a) crying. (yeah. i cry i lot when i pray.) b) tv c) computer
caramel frappe + jamaican pattie = uhh, bliss :)
passivity is my forte.
im hungry. my tastes buds are so pining for chocolates.
garb me, garb me!
tired of the world? die.
i loathe ethel booba. argh. irritating woman.
im missing a lot of people.
i hate monthly periods.
i love spongebob. but then i just wanna miss the movie coz i get easily turned off by density.
I may be a loser. But it doesn't make you any better.
Yeah. You're still the bigger loser.
oops. peace on earth.
i abhor the simple life. talk about insolence. you guys are uncool. get it?
mark abaya is just another pretty face.
treat me to mcdonald's, please?
[from a new commercial star search] girl: "i have my own girl power! i can stand the difference!"... uhh, what's that again?
i want another etc marathon. i have it almost every day of my life for crying out loud!
im going nuts! or maybe cashews? ack. 0.o
stepped down the ladder of evolution again and developed only a brainstem.
can't make a decent entry.
sad over Pope's sudden death.
starting to become a coffeeholic. Well that'll better suit my email.
Mcdo fries make the world go round!
i hate sweat.
i hate overactive sweat glands more.
Guitar or voice lesson? Or maybe both?
I just lost the opportunity of being in tagaytay.
my gay friend says im also 'gay'. what's that supposed to mean?
people say im getting fatter and fatter by the day. that's downright insulting.
[from a tv show] man: "you see my driver has a driver." haha. talk about smugness.
i would love to have access to perks.
new goal: befriend a celebrity.
oh, so does that mean befriending myself? ack. loser.
i hate overly-kikay creatures. they make me wanna puke!
people think too much paint makes them look fabulous. Oh they just bring to life idiocy.
i was headed to a murky road.
and there was light!
am I gonna be a psychologist?
i wanna be a pediatrician.
[from the commercial of a 'reality show'] voiceover: "kaya mo bang mag-bowling na ikaw ang bola?"... what about people's dignity?
bring me pizza from sbarro. You'll get a kiss.
tv commercials are slowly becoming dim-witted.
***Okay. So obviously, boredom doesn't make me any levelheaded.
Now I shall stop.
Btw, this is what you call introspection.
Friday, April 01, 2005
3:10 PM
okay. so maybe i was a coward.
but on second thought, err, no. i take that back. now i curse my mind for even factoring that in. i am no coward. i just thought keeping things from worsening means holding my tongue back.
though it took me a lot of time, effort, and courage to come up with this letter, i was reluctant to give it to you at first. but im not letting everything i've invested be put to waste. now after a lot of thinking, i realized that i can actually get to you in the subtlest manner, and that is, through this online journal.
Before finally coming up with this letter, I first had to deal with great fears. It would have been easier for me to stick to passivity but I really wanted to tell you a lot of things. I don't have any tinge of thought as to how you will take this. But then, all I ask is just a little fraction of your time.
I want to keep this as short as possible so to start things off, I would first like to apologize. I know I was never totally honest with you. I have never really shown any trace of annoyance, but my past blog entries might actually speak otherwise. (slapmebacktoreality.blogspot) If you happen to read some of my entries, you would discover that there were some points where I felt really bad that I was able to write things that were inappropriate.
I know that I'm responsible for whatever I put in that online journal, and because I'm aware that I was able to mention things that might offend you, I find it important now to apologize. I just want you to know that I didn't totally mean those things.
The reason why I never showed annoyance is because I never really was annoyed. I was just plain hurt, or maybe offended, and because I can't let it show, I have no other choice but to act as if I'm 'just annoyed.' I'm not a fraud, but at times, I tend to resort to hurtful words just so I can hide my own hurting. Because I myself felt offended, I found hurting people back with my sharp words the only way of redeeming my aggrieved ego.
You know there were just certain situations wherein you made me feel bad. Maybe they were unwittingly done, or maybe I was just overreacting. Now I can't go on trying to expound on this because I don't feel certain about anything at the moment. But you know the only way I had to hide the fact that I was hurt was to act as if I was not affected. Now I know doing that didn't help at all.
Up until this point, I still don't have any clear idea of how you see me. I don't even know if you consider me as a 'friend'. But on my part, I find you really special. Perhaps because I see everyone else that way. I consider myself your 'friend' because you somehow made me believe that I'm worthy being called one. And I gave so much value and importance to that privilege. Now, since I'm being totally honest, I might as well add that I don't remember myself caring for someone else the way I have cared for you. You matter a lot, and I hope I was able to make you feel that way with all the little things I tried to do.
But then again, I want to say that I am not assuming. I never was. I never put another meaning to what was happening before. Sure, I was analyzing things, but I never assumed. I never even attempted. I always tried to think in depth but I never lost grip on reality.
Alam mo, you often confuse me. I can't tell when you're feeling really okay, or when you're just trying to be nice. I can't even tell when you're already annoyed. I don't know what kind of adjustments I have to make just so I can put up perfectly well with you. Sometimes, I just get caught by surprise with sudden changes. For the longest time, I thought you wanted me out of your way, so I tried to do just that. But then you've surprised me again recently by acting as if nothing abnormal has happened. Everything seems back to normal.
I honestly feel happy that things are slowly getting okay now. I feel relieved whenever I get messages from you because somehow, I feel that you're not so mad after all and that I can still be a friend. But then, I feel awkward because I know I have said offensive things before and I feel that I just have to apologize first. And this is the very reason why I decided to write this letter.
It was really hard letting all these thing out and admitting my weaknesses that only me a few others know. So I hope you see now how important the 'friendship' is for me that I opted to resort to honesty. I don't have any other intention but to maintain whatever it is that we share, whether it be friendship or a sheer state of being acquainted. I just can't go on conversing with you as if nothing has happened; as if I have not hurt you with my words, and yes, maybe the other way around. You may think/say anything about me, but it will not change the fact that you do matter a lot that I just find it so essential to be honest, and to be humble enough to apologize.
I'm really sorry, and I hope we remain friends.
2:16 PM
Ang sabi ng kahapon...
Nakita ko ulit siya.
Pero sabi ng kahapon
hindi nya na uulitin ang sarili nya
para lang masaktan uli ako.
Nalungkot ako dahil sa kabutihan nya.
Nasaktan ako lalo dahil hindi na talaga puede.
Gusto kong magpumilit,
Ipakita sa kanya na handa ako
Kung para lang sa kanya.
Pero sa korte nya, bawal talaga.
Umiyak ako. Ulit. Akala ko hindi na uli
Ako mapapaiyak ng kahit ano,
O ng kahit sino ng ganito.
Pero naging parang tubig nanaman.
Patak.
Ng patak.
Ng patak.
Nasasaktan ako, hindi mo ba nakikita?
Pero tumalikod lang ang nakaraan.
At nagsimulang maglakad.
Papalayo.
Gusto kong humabol.
Pero sa isang iglap, nawala na siya.
Iniwan nya na talaga ako.
Hindi na nga siguro talaga puede.
Kahit ano pang pilit ko.
Gusto ko, pero may sarili na siyang mundo.
At hindi ako makapasok kahit malaki ang pinto.
Hindi ko parin matanggap.
Pero sabi ng nakita kong isang henyo
Na matagumpay na nabigo
Na siyang tumatawa habang gumigibik ang puso
At na siyang pumasok
at kinausap ako sa panaginip,
Na hindi na talaga papayag ang kahapon.
Dumaan na ang nakaraan.
At hindi na ito muling mangyayari.
Ganon pala talaga.
Laban ako ng laban.
Pero hanggang pangarap lang pala ang tagumpay.
Kaya bibitaw na ko.
Mataas na ang pagkakatangay sakin.
Kaya masakit sigurado ang pagbagsak.
Pero mas masasaktan ako
Kung kakapit pa ko ng patuloy.
Kasi kahit ano pang mangyari,
Hindi na talaga maari.
Hindi na.
Yun ang sabi ng kahapon.
"Ooops... Just kidding aside..." - Ms. B
Ma-guilty ang dapat ma-guilty
- "We can never can tell"
- "Anong edge mo?" ans: "ah, edge? 17."
- "Before I forgot"
- "I'm happy to inform you that we will have no water tonight"
- "The more the manier!"
- "My left hands" - Tracy torres
- "Paglaki ko gusto ko maging management." - starlet, pangarap nya
daw
- "My one hotels" - Jc Castro
- "The movie is director by..." - Melanie Marquez
- "You're barking at the wrong dog"
- "The sky's the langit"
- "Birds of the same feather, are of the same species"
- "The family that prays together, has only one rosary"
- "It's the count that thoughts"
- "It's a base-to-base casis"
- student: "Ms, i have a new blue swimsuit."
teacher: "Talaga?? what color?"
- teacher (raging): "Pray the angelus!"
students: "Angel of God..."
- "Shux! cno nga ba un? Na-mental blockout na naman ako.."
- girl1: "Sarap.. san mo binili?"
girl2: "Ang kulet! sa french bakery nga.."
- maid: "Atee, nagbrown out ung tubig... (HUH??!)
SELF-DECEPTION
