Wednesday, March 15, 2006
8:18 AM
sad :'(
Most folks think that I'm not real
Cause I'm half girl and I'm half seal
I'm a little seal girl livin' in the real world
And it's so hard to get by
'Cause seals can't even cry
But in this endless, boundless sea
Is there no one who looks like me?
I know I must stay chipper,
One day I'll find a friend to hold my flipper
'Cause I'm a little seal girl livin' in the real world
And it's so hard to get by
'Cause seals can't even cry
(AS TOLD BY GINGER)
this is exactly what i have been feeling for so long. it's so hard to pretend you're not hurt when the next thing you want to happen is to just end it all.
somebody once told me: "why are you hurting? isnt it enough that you know it is you he likes?"
and so i told her: "do you think being "affirmed" like that makes me any better protected? im also being pained, just like you... just like anybody else."
you think it's as simple as that, but you know so little. do you even know what im going through? do you even know how difficult it is to know where i am standing? you whine because you feel unnoticed. i glaringly live to witness that love--his love-- that you said was for me.
people have their own wounding stories. just open your eyes and you'll realize just how small yours is.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
3:02 AM
Insensitive
Jann Arden
How do you cool your lips,
after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat,
after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes,
from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you'd know anywhere?
Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes,
your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face,
that told me
you might have some advice to give
on how to be insensitive,
insensitive ooh, insensitive
How do you numb your skin,
after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood,
after the body rush?
How do you free your soul,
after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart
It's a crime to fall in love again?
Oh, you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue,
I'm out of touch,
I fell too fast,
I feel too much
I thought that you might
have some advice to give,
on how to be insensitive
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Biglaan
by 6 Cycle Mind
Nandito nakaukit pa rin sa puso ko,
Nang sabihin mong wag na lang.
Nandito nakatatak pa rin sa isip ko,
Kung paano mong tinalikuran ang lahat.
Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss
Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala,
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan,
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.
Hindi ba natin kayang magkunwari,
at sabihing sige na lang
Hindi ba natin kayang dayain,
Ang mga yakap sa tuwing lumalambing
Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss
Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala,
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan,
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.
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Ill Never Get Over You Getting Over Me
by Expose
I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time.
With all your good time friends.
I don't think that you think of me.
You're on your own now.
And I'm alone and free.
I know that I should get on with my life.
But a life with out you could never be right.
As long as the stars shine down from the heavens.
Long as the rivers run to the sea.
I'll never get over you gettin' over me.
I try to smile so the hurt won't show.
Tell everybody
That I was glad to see you go.
But the tears just won't go away (won't go away)
Lonliness found me.
Looks like it's here to stay.
I know that I ought to find someone new.
But all I find is myself always thinkin' of you.
As long as the stars shine down from the heavens.
Long as the rivers run to the sea.
I'll never get over you gettin' over me.
oh... No matter what I do.
Each night's a lifetime to live through.
I can't go on like this. (I need your touch)
You're the only one I ever loved... oh.
And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens.
Long as the rivers run to the sea.
I'll never get over you gettin' over me.
I'll never get over you gettin over.
Never get over you... gettin over.
I'll never get over you gettin' over me.
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If The Feeling Is Gone
by Kyla
If the feeling is gone
please don't pretend that you still love me
I can see it in your eyes
and it hurts to admit it
I can tell that the feeling is gone
All i ask is just a little honesty
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you know
If the feeling is gone
There's a sadness in your smile
Though I try to conceal it
I can tell that the feeling is gone
All i ask is just a little honesty
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you go
If the feeling is gone
All i ask is just a little honesty
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you go
I just have to let you go
I just have to let you go
If the feeling is gone....
Stay...
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**sometimes, the heart speaks of so much feelings to someone you thought was listening.
and it hurts so bad to realize that the person you've spoken to
never really dared to understand nor even tried to listen at all.....**
it's the ugliest feeling to give until nothing's left for you....
yet that's what love is....
Saturday, February 25, 2006
10:51 PM
a little help for a broken soul.
I never thought I'd cry this way again. I'm stronger now, that's what I kept on telling myself. But everything was self-deception...
How can i be strong when things are just treating me so painfully cruel? Is there no better cycle? Why does it have to be that every blissful moment be offset by painful ones? At one moment, your head's up in the sky, at another, you fall and completely lose yourself. Is this how it should really go?
With what I feel for you, I have no doubts, not even ifs. Because for one, you're all I've ever wanted. And if I could only fight for what I'm feeling, I swear I would have done so long before. But what I have is a patient heart that is willing to wait. One that is trying so hard to bear the pain of secretly loving you..
For the longest time, I was wise enough to deny that it was love that existed. But what does being wise have to offer when the heart already starts to feel the twinge? What does it have to give when the heart is already drowning in tears? Does it always have to be mind over heart? Can't they ever compromise?...
You're all that's on my mind every waking and sleeping moment of my life..
You're all that's giving me enough reason to smile...
You're all that's keeping me convinced that I have a beautiful world...
You're all that's providing me much to be thankful for...
And now, you're all that's making me laugh and cry at the same time...
Because of you, I am JEALOUS. Jealous because there is always the feeling that I have to battle against so many people just to get a little of your attention.
Because of you, I am PARANOID. Paranoid because as much as I want to be as close as possible, all I could do is watch you from afar, and painfully satisfy myself with the wishful thinking that somehow, it is me you think of.
Because of you, I am CONFUSED. Confused because I am sheer oblivious on how to deal with all the demands of liking you so much; confused because as much as I want to fight for this feeling, all I could do is wait for things to unravel the way they should.
Because of you, I am AFRAID. Afraid because they exist; I am afraid of losing you, though I know I never even had you.
Because of you, I am HAPPY. Happy because finally, I have found the one really deserving of my love and attention; Happy because I have found better meaning for my existence.
Now tell me, is it not love? Could it possibly be not love? Can't anybody realize that it would be the greatest foolishness for me to still deny it?
If being rational means forgetting you have a heart especially designed to love, then it would be my greatest pleasure to remain irrational for the rest of my life. Because loving you has given me so much meaning that I no longer care about what there is to lose...
Sunday, April 17, 2005
10:32 AM
for the first time after several years, i have found someone waaay better than spongebob.
BO BICE.
yeah. the hot guy has captured my heart and has left spongebob crying for attention.
.....
.....
.....
nuttiness.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
5:43 PM
sheesh. i almost forgot i have a blog.
see ive been reeeaaaallllyyy lazy these days.
ahhh summer....
anyways, the only reason im writing this is because i am stuck at my lola's house with exactly nothing to do. i cant even indulge in an all day etc/hbo/starworld marathon (which, mind you, is the ONLY thing that keeps me alive these days) because my young nieces/nephews are so ready to terminate whoever gets in their way making them fail in their pursuit of dominating the entire television set. argh. really pathetic.
still, im feeling happy because my eldest brother passed the board exam with flying colors. :D yay!!!
so world, gear yourself up for the coming of ENGINEER RAYMUND NABLE.
....okay. so im overreacting. again.
but like i care. im really proud of what he'd accomplished.:D
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i am so loving american idol.
but im loving bo bice more.
one single smile makes me melt.totally.
but im not discounting the fact that constantine's also very gorgeous.
its just that, err, i like bo bice more. :D
no, wait a minute. i dont like bo... i love him. he rocks it out all the time!
paula's so right. we'll see him at the f.i.n.a.l.e.
argh. can't give a decent review of american idol at this point.
i'll just make another entry completely about the show and about bo next time.
yeah. next time. maybe after another 40 years when ive already overcome laziness. :D
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bye world.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
1:22 PM
senior citizens
meron isang couple.
pareho silang matanda na.
siguro mga hundred years old na.
pero c lola, papansin parin kay lolo.
kaya one day, sabi niya, ise-seduce nya c lolo.
first night: nagsuot sya ng pink na nightgown na see-through
lolo, deadma
second night: nagsuot sya ng t-back (saklap)
lolo, deadma parin
third night:
lola: hindi na ko papayag, dapat mapansin nya na ko ngayon.
kaya ginawa nya, naghubad sya.
lolo: o, bat ganyan suot mo? gusot-gusot!
hahaha.
Friday, April 08, 2005
7:48 AM
ace judicio
i'm out to get you.
yak.ampanget palang pakingan.
but still, i'll find you.
i swear we'll meet again.
we just have to.
5:19 AM
you name it!
(nyee! baduy)
1). YOUR PORN STAR NAME - (NAME OF FIRSTPET + STREET YOU LIVE ON):.
:: ashley flaviana
2). YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME -(GRANDMOTHER'S/ GRANDFATHER"S FIRST NAME + FAVORITESNACK FOOD):.
:: Florentina jamaican patties
3). YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME - (FIRSTWORD YOU SEE ON YOUR LEFT + FAVORITERESTAURANT)::
:. sony mcdonald (okay. so it's a fast food. but like i care)
5). YOUR SOCIALITE NAME - (SILLIESTCHILDHOOD NICKNAME + FIRST TOWNWHERE YOU PARTIED)::
:. Bange Eastwood (that is so not it. ampanget)
6). YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME - (FIRSTINITIAL + FIRST THREE LETTERS OF YOURLAST NAME)::
:. R. Nab
7). YOUR DETECTIVE NAME - (FAVORITEANIMAL + NAME OF HIGH SCHOOL)::
:. elephant St Paul
8). YOUR BARFLY NAME - (LAST SNACK FOODYOU ATE + YOUR FAVORITE ALCOHOLICDRINK)::
:. pretz vodka ice
9). YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME - (MIDDLENAME + STREET WHERE YOU FIRST LIVED)::
:. amago capt. ato (huwatsdatt?)
10). YOUR ROCK STAR NAME - (FAVORITECANDY + FAVORITE MUSICIAN'S LAST NAME)::
:. mentos morissette
11). YOUR "POPULAR" NAME - (FAVORITECELEBRITY'S FIRST NAME + BEST FRIEND'SCITY NAME)::
:. ashton pasig (anu ba!)
12). YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME - (NAME OF[OPPOSITE SEX] FRIEND + CELL PHONECOMPANY YOU USE)::
:. Sherwin smart (okay. he's gay, but he really is smart. :D)
"Ooops... Just kidding aside..." - Ms. B
Ma-guilty ang dapat ma-guilty
- "We can never can tell"
- "Anong edge mo?" ans: "ah, edge? 17."
- "Before I forgot"
- "I'm happy to inform you that we will have no water tonight"
- "The more the manier!"
- "My left hands" - Tracy torres
- "Paglaki ko gusto ko maging management." - starlet, pangarap nya
daw
- "My one hotels" - Jc Castro
- "The movie is director by..." - Melanie Marquez
- "You're barking at the wrong dog"
- "The sky's the langit"
- "Birds of the same feather, are of the same species"
- "The family that prays together, has only one rosary"
- "It's the count that thoughts"
- "It's a base-to-base casis"
- student: "Ms, i have a new blue swimsuit."
teacher: "Talaga?? what color?"
- teacher (raging): "Pray the angelus!"
students: "Angel of God..."
- "Shux! cno nga ba un? Na-mental blockout na naman ako.."
- girl1: "Sarap.. san mo binili?"
girl2: "Ang kulet! sa french bakery nga.."
- maid: "Atee, nagbrown out ung tubig... (HUH??!)
SELF-DECEPTION
